Mama Musings 1

Hey everyone!

Well it's been 3 weeks and about 2 hours since we welcomed our sweet little boy into the world. And everything feels different.

It's insane to me that 1) in one instant my whole world could change 2) that I could hold this tiny person in my arms and feel as if I've known him forever and 3) that I could love someone so much that sometimes it's completely overwhelming. I look at his little face and see my nose and Parker's ears. We literally made a human. Isn't that mind boggling? I know that we as a human race have been making more humans ever since we've existed so it shouldn't be that surprising and neat... but my brain can't really seem to get over it. 

Our little guy has been SO fun... and SO exhausting haha. He still loves listening to Louis Armstrong and the Beatles. Instead of cooing, as you would expect a baby to do, he growls and squeaks like the little (adorable) monster that he is. 

He loves flailing his little arms and legs around like he's treading water. His little hairs are turning red and his eyes seem to be getting more blue. 

I mean he's seriously adorable and yes he cries (and by that I mean screams) during the night and I often feel like a milk cow that needs a break but I love him so much. I get it now. I get why my mom does some of the things that she does. I get why my grandmothers did and do the things that they do. To be responsible for this tiny little person's life is an incredible responsibility. I think about him all the time. I worry about him all the time. 

I wonder what kind of man he's going to be. I wonder if he is going to be creative. Will he like seafood? Is he going to be an adrenaline junkie like his dad? Everyday I feel like I am discovering something new about him and myself and I can't wait to watch him grow... and a small part of me wants him to stay teensy and perfect and safe in my arms forever. It's conflicting and slightly confusing but I'm figuring it out. 

Oh before I go, here is the song that without fail makes my little guy smile or fall asleep. I can always count on John, Paul, George and Ringo.

So those are my thoughts for today. I hope all is well! Nursery pictures coming soon! I've just got a few projects to finish. 

Much love!

Sydney L

Lumberjack Mack

Hey guys!

So through all of my "baby prep" somewhere along the line I got a promo code for a free 8X8 Shutterfly Photobook... Naturally I had 150 ideas as to what to use it on BUT Parker and I settled on making a storybook for our sweet little baby!

Naturally the story that evolved was about a jerky eating, bear wrestling lumberjack that decides to go on an adventure to find a wife. And naturally that meant that Parker needed to grow out a beard and some of my dear friends had to dress up as animals. I thought I would share some of the photos with you because they turned out so dang cute!

Love,
Sydney L

Golden Ticket

Hey everyone!

I just had the best morning EVER! Parker, our pal Phil and I had the opportunity to finally check out the DeBrande Chocolatier tour. It was magical.

They started by showing us a video introducing the company and showing us wonderful photos of their beautiful products. We were then given a tour of the 3 kitchens and were given samples a few of DeBrande's seriously delicious fillings. 

We then proceeded to spend WAY to much money on their chocolates they had available for purchase. I couldn't talk Parker into the gellato BUT we did get sea salt caramels, among some other wonderful flavors. 

On another happy note, our little baby was over the moon about all the samples. Judging by the tap dancing he was doing in my belly, he loved the raspberry creme. The chocolate was great. The factory was beautiful. My pregnant belly is happy. So triple win, yeah?

Much Love,

Sydney L

Watermelon Seed

So folks, I'm starting to look like I've eaten a watermelon seed.
It was bound to happen and I'm more than okay with it. Being pregnant is not what I expected at all. I expected to not be sick (my mom was never sick, my grandma was never sick...) I expected to be fat but to be pretty much the same. I imagined a little human growing and moving inside of me and would shudder at the thought. I assumed that eventually the hormones would be rough to manage and I'd never look at tiny shoes and squeal with delight. I was mostly wrong.
1) I had 3 full months of sick. It was not fun but for some reason I didn't mind to much. Parker hated it. He looked at me so sad and at a loss of what to do. Thankfully that portion of pregnancy is finished.
2) A little human moving around is so neat! He's gotten big enough that you can see my tummy move when he moves. It's amazing to feel him wiggle when certain music is on, or when Parker talks to him. I never thought I'd be so enthralled by looking at and touching my own tummy.
3) The hormones are rough. I cry and yell at nothing. It's pretty ridiculous. Thankfully my sweet husband is good at laughing at me and holding me until I calm down. I can't decide if it's hormones or the trouble sleeping but I also didn't expect my dreams to get so coo-coo. But they definitely did.
The thing that has mostly surprised me is how full of hope I am for this tiny life inside of me. I think about him all the time. What's he going to look like? Will he be creative like me or strategic and smart like his daddy? Will he have as much energy out of the womb as he does in? I just can't wait to get to know him. I feel so incredibly blessed to be in this situation. Am I terrified to be a mom? Pretty much. But I know that this is going to be a wonderful adventure.
Thanks for listening!
-Sydney L

Managing May

Hey guys! It's been a while since I've made a "things that are making me happy" list. This could be a combination of business and laziness (you should probably believe it's laziness) but I think it's about time to do one again.
This week has been pretty rough between Parker being sick and me passing kidney stones... then there's the pregnancy exhaustion mixed with Parker's work exhaustion. So I think it's time to take a moment to talk about happy things and remember that I have a LOT to be grateful for.

1) ANNIVERSARY! It's crazy to think that it's been a whole year and almost a month since our delightful wedding day. I feel like I can finally think about it without left over angst and stress... which is a minor miracle. Not only has our anniversary given me a chance to do that, it's also let me reflect on the year. Everything has changed so much! Not only that but everything is 10 times happier than I could have imagined it being. If you would have told me last year that at this time I would be pregnant, we'd be in Indiana of all places, I would have laughed at you. Anyways, back to our anniversary.

Parker is always the champion of surprises. He LOVES surprising me... and he hates being surprised. Needless to say he went "all out" for our anniversary. He was nervous about planning anything because we weren't sure how I'd be feeling but luckily for us the morning sickness dissipated just in time. We stayed at the Grand America in Salt Lake City (which is definitely in my top 5 favorite places EVER). It was so beautiful. There's something about staying there that makes you feel as if you've been transported to a different life, where you may not be a princess but you are definitely some form of lesser royalty. We ate gelato and explored the hotel. That night we went to Desert Star Theater to see Provo Cop... which was hilarious!

The next morning we woke up to breakfast in bed and then we went to the ZOO!! I know there's those anti zoo people. I'm not one of them. I love being able to see the monkeys and elephants and roar at the lions. Parker and I got to squeal at all the cute baby animals. It was perfect!

2) Sour Cream and Onion Chips. This seems to be my most consistent pregnancy symptom besides medium rare hamburgers and enchiladas. There's something about the way they crunch in my mouth... just thinking about it makes me hungry but that could just be that I'm always hungry.

3) Target Baby Registry. I had no idea that deciding what you wanted/needed for an upcoming baby would be so time consuming and frustrating! There is SO much stuff. Target's online registry though, is wonderful. They have it divided into categories. It makes it way easier to not lose track of what you've already looked at. Their reviews are generally helpful and they even have a "mom's choice" section that has a group of mommies' top choices in any price range. It's been great and useful and stress relieving.

4) DeBrand Fine Chocolates. This place is right here in Fort Wayne... about 5 minutes away from our apartment. I've yet to go BUT they do tours and I have the boys talked into it for next week. Just thinking about going is making me salivate. Click the link to check out some gorgeous chocolate porn. Be warned though, it's going to make you hungry for the rest of the day.

5) The Paradise. I'm almost a fan of period pieces done by the BBC. This is no exception. For those that watch Mr. Selfridge on Masterpiece, this will remind you a lot of it. However, I never got into Mr. Selfridge. Anyways, back to the Paradise. The show is set in 1875 and is centered around an English department store. If you like accents, beautiful clothes and some romance, look into it. There are only going to be 2 seasons. The first is on Netflix.

and finally 6) Chasing Grace- Run and Ed Sheeran- Small Bump. Both have been playing in my head all month. Listen in and let me know what you think.

Much love from my home to yours!
-Sydney L

When you wake up in Disneyland...

Hello Everyone! 

Do you ever have that weird feeling when you come home from vacation, and feel like your vacation was wonderful but not necessarily relaxing... and you feel more tired after than before you left? That's how I currently feel. I feel as if I'm still recovering from our California trip.

Parker and I had the awesome opportunity to go to DISNEYLAND with a couple of new friends. It was absolutely wonderful. I've always told Parker that I wanted to go to Disney before we had kids. We cut it close but we made it happen and I'm sure our little bean loved all the stimuli. 

We got to the park around 11 on Friday and ran all day. We ate churros, were serenaded by a live jazz band , laid on the couches in the Lincoln Theater and rode the riverboat to relax from all of the line standing and ride riding. Parker hadn't been to Disneyland for 11 years! Which is crazy to me. California Adventure didn't even exist when he came last. His favorite was the Car's Racing ride. We road it twice and it was awesome! We saw Mickey and Minnie and took quizzes to see which Disney Character we were most like. I got Belle and Parker was Buzz Lightyear. We rode the classics like Pirates of the Caribbean and Peter Pan. As always Soarin' Over California was great and reminded us that California is awesome. We saw World of Color and rode the Haunted Mansion. I'm very excited about our "Happy Haunt" that we got to bring home. Being there just made me feel so excited to take our children someday. It was perfect.

On an even happier note we got to help our pal Saul propose to his adorable girlfriend Rachel. He asked her on Splash Mountain and it was so stinkin cute. We made signs so the boys could hold them up on the ride when the picture is taken. Poor Rachel was in the front of the log, looking like she wasn't going to make it. Saul asked her to marry him in front of the picture monitors at the end of the ride. It was so happy and clever and I'm so excited for them! They are going to be great. I'm so grateful that I was able to be a part of something so exciting.

 The day after Disneyland we went to the beach, ate delicious food and saw a car show. I feel so blessed to be able to have these adventures. I'm doing my best to never take it for granted. 

Much love,

Sydney L

Beans

Hello Everyone!
I've got a special announcement! It would seem that I'm going to be getting bigger over the next couple of months.... and our little family of two is growing into a family of three!

We are so excited and surprised and excited (did I say excited?) for the wonderful new adventure we are blessed to embark on. Our little bean will be joining us in September and we can't wait!

Much love,
Sydney L

New Growth

Hey everyone!
Now that it's finally March, I feel as if winter is gone. I'm sure that we will have several more random snow storms and I'm sure that the sun won't warm us up as much as I'd hoped but I'm full of hope for this month. Really I'm just full of hope for this life. I find myself in good spirits today, despite the mountain of homework I've been avoiding... I look out our huge sliding glass door and see green grass sprouting and hear birds chirping. It's simply beautiful. I love the new life and wonder that spring tends to bring. There is something amazing about taking off a layer or two for good... at least for a couple of months.

Now it's been a busy and wonderful week. I thought I'd give you a quick update!
We finally have a summer plan! Wahoo! Parker and I will be travelling to Fort Wayne, Indiana with Now Communications. Parker will be selling satellite TV. And in happier news, this will be our LAST summer of sales. It's been an amazing experience to travel to new places and meet new people but the time has come to transition to grown up life. Oh! And Boone is going to come and sell too! It's going to be great to see my two favorite boys working together. It should be great!
SPRING BREAK is next week. I'm headed to Tooele land for some wonderful adventures with my family and friends. I NEVER thought I'd miss that place but I certainly do. I'll keep you posted on my adventures and discoveries while I'm there.
On a side note, I've just started rereading My One Hundred Adventures by Polly Horvath. It's a beautiful book. It's written for children BUT I love it. I thought I'd close with a quote from it.
"Suddenly I realize that everyone in the whole world is, at the end of a day, staring at a dusky horizon, owner of a day that no one else will ever know."
Take advantage of the opportunities today holds!
Love from my home to yours,
Sydney L

Cathedral Gorge

Now I'm not particularly thoughtful or deep today, but I am happy! So I thought I would share our latest adventure with you! Our dear friends Krystal and Bryce kidnapped us on Saturday for an EPIC trip to Nevada. We visited Cathedral Gorge State Park. We ate delicious food (grilled chicken, beans etc.) and hiked around the park. It was absolutely beautiful. It was also a nice reminder that Heavenly Father made this world for us to enjoy! So get outside and enjoy your beautiful February!
Much Love!
Sydney L