Mama Musings 1

Hey everyone!

Well it's been 3 weeks and about 2 hours since we welcomed our sweet little boy into the world. And everything feels different.

It's insane to me that 1) in one instant my whole world could change 2) that I could hold this tiny person in my arms and feel as if I've known him forever and 3) that I could love someone so much that sometimes it's completely overwhelming. I look at his little face and see my nose and Parker's ears. We literally made a human. Isn't that mind boggling? I know that we as a human race have been making more humans ever since we've existed so it shouldn't be that surprising and neat... but my brain can't really seem to get over it. 

Our little guy has been SO fun... and SO exhausting haha. He still loves listening to Louis Armstrong and the Beatles. Instead of cooing, as you would expect a baby to do, he growls and squeaks like the little (adorable) monster that he is. 

He loves flailing his little arms and legs around like he's treading water. His little hairs are turning red and his eyes seem to be getting more blue. 

I mean he's seriously adorable and yes he cries (and by that I mean screams) during the night and I often feel like a milk cow that needs a break but I love him so much. I get it now. I get why my mom does some of the things that she does. I get why my grandmothers did and do the things that they do. To be responsible for this tiny little person's life is an incredible responsibility. I think about him all the time. I worry about him all the time. 

I wonder what kind of man he's going to be. I wonder if he is going to be creative. Will he like seafood? Is he going to be an adrenaline junkie like his dad? Everyday I feel like I am discovering something new about him and myself and I can't wait to watch him grow... and a small part of me wants him to stay teensy and perfect and safe in my arms forever. It's conflicting and slightly confusing but I'm figuring it out. 

Oh before I go, here is the song that without fail makes my little guy smile or fall asleep. I can always count on John, Paul, George and Ringo.

So those are my thoughts for today. I hope all is well! Nursery pictures coming soon! I've just got a few projects to finish. 

Much love!

Sydney L

Back to Utah

Hello Everyone!
I'm aware that you haven't heard from me for a while, so I thought I'd say hello! Isn't it just crazy how you think you are just SO busy and then you find a way to get busier? The past few months have just flown by. Parker and I have moved back to Utah and have finally (sort of) gotten settled in Cedar City. I feel like our apartment is still a work in progress. There is a lovely pile of photos leaning against the wall to be hung up and when people come over they get to see the half finished gallery wall and our 3 mismatched (in a pretty tacky way) dining chairs. We are certainly living the dream!

All joking aside, we really are living the dream. Cedar City is seriously one of the cutest places in the whole world. There is always something going on and the houses are darling. Parker and I have had the pleasure of going on hikes and other outdoor adventures. Unfortunately the temperature is dropping quickly and I'm living on tea and hot chocolate. I'm remembering why I love boot weather though! The smell of fall is one of the best smells ever. Apples, crisp leaves, pumpkin and coves. Oh and I love the feeling when you breathe in and the air is bright in your lungs. Truly wonderful.

When I started writing I was under the impression I'd post some Louisiana photos but now I'm feeling a little Autumny (not a word, but you get what I mean) so here are some photos of our Autumn Adventures!

At the beginning of October, we got to go to the vivint end of year party. In true vivint fashion, they booked the whole Energy Solutions Arena and had Imagine Dragons perform for us. It was super neat! I've never been a huge Imagine Dragons fan but the concert was a blast and it gave us an excuse to come home to see our family for the weekend, so double win! Vivint wasn't done with us yet though...

A few weeks ago we got a text and vivint was inviting us to go to Fear Factory in SLC. My adorable "little sister" Kylee came with us. She was so terrified. It was a pretty good haunted house and it was cool to be lead through an actual factory. Unfortunately we had these SUPER annoying little boys behind us that shrieked at everything. Overall it was super fun though.

We had the wonderful opportunity to go to the Scream at SUU a few weeks ago. Parker was a cowboy and I rocked the hippie thing. It was SO fun. They had a hypnotist and a mentalist and the DJ was great. We didn't get home til about 2 am... which was a novelty. Usually we are in bed by 9 and eat supper at 4 haha.

On actual Halloween we got to carve pumpkins and attend the ward party. We did a costume switcharoo. Parker was Seamus Finnagin and I was Rosie the Riviter. It was so fun! We got to meet a ton of people and load up on maple bars. It's been a pretty successful fall so far. I hope you are taking advantage of your own fall activities.
Much love from my home to yours!
-Sydney Johnson Alleman